Man this is a long week, sheesh!

Man this is a long week, sheesh!

I am so glad though that he shares his feelings and thoughts with me. Talking to me provides him a sort of venting which helps to reduce his anxiety. He doesn’t feel pressured or pushes with me. He hasn’t done much in the apartment these last few days…but he also has been working his ass off these past few days.

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Damn you valentines day

Damn you valentines day

I just find that technology today makes having a relationship seem more important then it really is. It is nice to be in love, to have a partner to hold and all that jazz. But why do we feel tempted to to be boastful and self righteous about how extraordinary our relationship is?

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Meditation night

Meditation night

Photo: meditation on mt. Sinai by Claude Morcos I went to another meditation evening, it was a nice night. Not sure why but I wasn’t all that into it, it was strange. It was as though I couldn’t wait for it to finish, which is not like me. I usually want it to go on [...]

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Volunteer!

Volunteer!

Photo: Talking about… by Lionoche So this is a very short post just to mention that the next week will be a little bit crazy for me. I am going to be a volunteer for an organization that helps people overcome their depression, anxiety and/or phobia. It’s a once a week thing but it is [...]

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When you jerk off your guy more than you do yourself…

When you jerk off your guy more than you do yourself…

It’s hard to be giving all the time and not be getting some sort of acknowledgement. I mean, if M was somewhat interested in me getting off, it would sort of make me feel better, but he doesn’t seem to care. He is very detached and he is conscious of it but I wish he made an effort to be closer to me or to be more engaged in my sexual gratification.

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Stress is so draining

Stress is so draining

However, M did not seem as thrilled as I once I gave him the news by phone. He wants me to find a job so bad that it stresses him out and that is what I think is causing him physical pain. Anyways, he said he will speak to me once he gets home. I hope he tries to be encouraging and understanding. I know it isn’t a job but I feel that this is what I should be doing right now. It is going to lead to something good, I know this.

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Still healing, but things are going uphill

Still healing, but things are going uphill

Finally, when I tried to get M to stimulate my g-spot he didn’t want to because he didn’t want to hurt me because he wasn’t doing it right. I got him to do it anyway, but my pussy muscles were too strong for his fingers, lol. He said that my pussy was on the verge of breaking off his fingers. Finally I ended up using my toys. Which I find sucks because I really want to be with him in the moment fully without relying on toys.

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Masturbation Diaries: Orgasms, cake and soup!

Masturbation Diaries: Orgasms, cake and soup!

Photo: Sylvia no5 by Blazej Mrozinski OMG! I got to play with my new toy, and boy oh boy! Never have I ever had a toy that could make me orgasm and squirt at the same time without my conscious willing of it. I usually have to will my squirt to come with an orgasm [...]

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If I was off tomorrow…

If I was off tomorrow…

So, I have to say that I am spoiled rotten :) I got a gift from a friend from over at Eden Fantasys!!!!! I am so spoiled, this wonderful friend splurged and offered me a Pure wand by Njoy! OMG!!!! I wish I could accumulate enough points and gift cards to spoil her too! I haven’t made videos in a while and I used to get many gift cards

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My top 5 Chemises

My top 5 Chemises

I thought I would put a short post showing you guys my top 5 chemises! 1. Haute in the city halter dress, it is a dress but I still wear it as a chemise. Since I have a long torso this is a little short to wear as a dress, I could wear it as [...]

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